I haven’t written in a few months now and I don’t know why. Probably distracted with everything that is going on in my life.  So there are a few things weighing on me and normally I am open about everything that happens in my life but right now I don’t feel like opening up. I feel like keeping everything inside and that right there my friends is what’s hurting me.  On the outside I am all smiles and seem like I have the Joy of the Lord in me and that nothing can bring me down, but this, this what I am holding on to seemingly by myself has me messed up in the inside.  
I seek the Lord, yet I don’t see Him, I call out to Him yet I don’t hear Him.  (This sucks)

Where did I go wrong?  Am I being selfish? What should I do? All questions I keep asking myself daily.  

I know I am all over the place but thats just how I am feeling.  

Honestly, I am going to stop writing now cause I don’t know where I am going with this. That’s how lost I am. Lost. 

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4 thoughts on “Confession: I’m at a loss…

  1. I don’t think you are doing anything wrong. Being open and honest with people around us is something that very few of us do. i guess it’s just human nature. Just remember that the Lord knows your heart and although you may not feel close to Him he is always with you. Take care and my the Lord bless you.

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  2. I know that kind of being lost. I have felt it many times these past 2 years. Know that you are loved, by God, by Luis, and by us! We have your back and we are praying for you.

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  3. Been there many times- and I am sure so has many others.

    Keep praying ( even though it can be hard) if you have no words to say… than just lay and think about Him. Your not lost, He knows exactly where you are 🙂 but He is silent right now …. He is teaching you something about Him and about you. Ryan and I hung a printed note everywhere when we felt lost, lonely and alone.

    We wrote:

    This too shall pass…

    Hope this helps a little- I know it’s hard when you’re in it. If there is anything you need at all, I am available.

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