I haven’t written in a few months now and I don’t know why. Probably distracted with everything that is going on in my life. So there are a few things weighing on me and normally I am open about everything that happens in my life but right now I don’t feel like opening up. I feel like keeping everything inside and that right there my friends is what’s hurting me. On the outside I am all smiles and seem like I have the Joy of the Lord in me and that nothing can bring me down, but this, this what I am holding on to seemingly by myself has me messed up in the inside.
I seek the Lord, yet I don’t see Him, I call out to Him yet I don’t hear Him. (This sucks)
Where did I go wrong? Am I being selfish? What should I do? All questions I keep asking myself daily.
I know I am all over the place but thats just how I am feeling.
Honestly, I am going to stop writing now cause I don’t know where I am going with this. That’s how lost I am. Lost.