Hey everyone!! It has been almost a year since I’ve written and honestly it seems like it’s a trend. I’m good for a few months then blah. I am back and hopefully for good. But I’m not perfect… IJS.
So I went through a funk. I was dealing with some self pity and some loneliness and I had to have God kick me in the rear for me to realize that I did this to myself. I isolated myself. I pushed people away. I stopped calling, texting, visiting, inviting. Why did I do this?
Can I be real with y’all? Who am I kidding I am always real with y’all. I stopped doing all those things cause I was sick of being the only one doing the pursuing. Wouldn’t you get tired of always being the one making the invitations, or trying to make a friendship work, etcetera, etcetera? I got tired of it so I stopped and realized that God made me to be that person. That person that gets people together. That person that organizes events, that sends encouragement to a friend or just a hello to make them feel like they are important or being thought of. I think at some point I became this person seeking for something that God solely can give.
He accepts me how I am . Sins and all!! Yes I have my faults, and yes I sin, and sometimes I feel like throwing an orange at a stranger without any cause at all. (This thought really happened to me a few years back). But He accepts me as I am ! With my yellow hair, and attitude. (This is me ranting, cause it wouldn’t be my blog if I didn’t have rant in here somewhere, IJS).
Changing subject like a crazy person.( I am all over the place)
Have you ever compared yourself to anyone or your life to someone else’s?
God has really opened my eyes. This passed week He has shown me that by isolating myself I have robbed others from the blessings He is trying to distribute to others through me.
In a devotional I am reading hospitality is brought up. Have you ever not invited someone over to your house because your house was not up to par? Your house is a mess? Or your life is a mess and your house displays said mess? Well in the devotional it says that by not inviting that person you might be robbing the person for a blessing. Yes ! You are robbing them from a blessing. Your invitation could be the highlight of their day and because of your own insecurities you have taken that away from them. How selfish have I been? How selfish can we be? Time to change it up a bit and start blessing the socks off people. I challenge you to do the same. Invite someone over, have a party. MESS AND ALL!!! Love y’all